Day -20 :: The Nightmare

 An Introvert's Nightmare

I told my first friend today that I'm doing this, or at least thinking about it. Her response 

"Man that sounds exhausting. Hahaha I know someone who tried [that]...but didn't finish it." 

It does sound exhausting. I am an introvert, meeting large numbers (>2) of my peers[1] is a lot of mental and emotional work for me. Especially if I am going to try to care about them for longer than 30 minutes. I am hoping it'll go much better in a 1-1 setting. 

The concept that extroverts usually misunderstand about introverts is that we literally *need* alone time to recharge and be ready for the world. It's not that we hate people. 

Day -21

 Hi! It's me. I'm the unmarried one.[1] 

    This all started with a phone call this afternoon from M. She wanted to know if she could send me a link to a podcast. M prefaced her sending me the link by saying that I'm a thoughtful and kind person, and maybe I could give it a listen and replicate the experiment. I didn't have to, if I didn't want to, but could I at least give it a listen. 

The podcast is called "This is the Gospel Podcast", the episode is called "Love Lessons". 

    All of my friends reading this, have just scoffed. The last time I went on a date was a year ago, and I disliked it so much I haven't given anyone a chance since. 

But as I've neared 30, I've started saying yes to more things.